February 27, 2002

That is not a typo, you read it right. That is the last day I thought I needed a chemical to help me deal with life. My chemical of choice was alcohol. I have learned a lot in the last 3 years. Here is what I have learned just in the last year: 1. Faith is a noun and a verb. 2. God loves me no matter what. 3. It is ok to ask for help. 4. Asking for help keeps me humble. 5. It took a long time, but I now know who I am. 6. It is ok for me to be a human being, that is who God made me to be. 7. It is ok for me to say "no". 8. I have the tools I need to battle the devil. 9. I have courage I never thought I had. 10. I have serenity. Thanks for letting me share, Jacy

Stay tuned for February 27th

I will be posting a very special entry on February 27th. It marks a very special anniversary for me. Stay tuned....... Keep Coming Back, Jacy

God's Grace of the Gift

I promised to tell you the gift that I shared. The gift that I shared was the gift of telling someone who needed to hear and see about my ileostomy. I don't often get to share my experience strength and hope about that. To see someone's attitude totally change because they looked at me and realized that living with an ostomy is not the end of the world, is my annointing. He had that planned all along. I got to share with a man and his family when they received the news that an ostomy may be a possibility after surgery to remove a colon tumor. Let's face it, the diagnoses of the "Big C" is bad enough, and then the surgeon starts talking about "the bag". God is in control of the tumor, but God has given me the grace to be in control of helping those who may be, or already are, facing life with an ostomy. May the Grace of God be with you too, Jacy

Sharing Gifts

22 years ago, God gave me a gift. Not all saw it as a gift at the time. A few years after that, God gave me the chance to share that gift with others who had the same gift. That gift that God gave me was to be the mile marker of my life. It isn't often that I get to share that gift. Today was one of those few days that I got to share it. "What is it?" you ask. It is the gift of getting to help another human being. "But people help each other every day!" you say. Yes, but few can help with the gift that I have. When sharing the gift that I have can be a mile marker in another human beings life, it becomes something only God can plan, carry out, and maintain. "What is it!?" you shout. Keep coming back and I will tell you. May you treasure God's gifts always, Jacy

You Can't See God Coming.....

but you sure know when He has been there. One day at work, ( I am a Registered Nurse) I was caring for a patient whose main focus was to keep comfortable until his imminent death. I had just finished his bath, and repositioned him, combed his hair, etc. He looked quite peaceful and comfortable. He was unresponsive at this time. I was in the room by my self, and said outloud, "God, it has been a pleasure getting him ready for you." That was at 1000 am. At 1015 am, the man died. I did share this with some of the other nurses, because that is what God wants me to do. And now I am sharing it with you. May God appear in your life, and may you not miss Him, Jacy